beaniefiend's Blog

I have come to realize that it is never good to have expectations about anything especially regarding someone else's behavior but inevitable one will end up disappointed. Instead it is better to have no expectations whatsoever but instead just be open to what happens. I have become upset many times because of expectations that weren't met. I will try not to let expectations get in the way of happiness.

I found out good news and bad news at the doctor's office yesterday. The good news is that my calcium level is normal so it might just be that my vitamin D is down.  If the blood tests finds out it's vitamin D then I would just take a supplement. The bad news is that my parathyroid hormone level is high, but she said that it could just be because vitamin D is too low. She wants to repeat the blood tests and also get a scan of my parathyroid glands. The problem is that there is a big shortage of the radioactive isotopes that are needed for the scan. So I might not get the scan for quite a while. I was hoping that the doctor would tell me what is going with my body. Why I have all these symptoms. That I'm not crazy or a hypochondriac! So I'm glad that my calcium isn't high but upset because I don't know what is wrong. I looked online and read that is possible to have parathyroid problems with normal calcium. I really need a family doctor but there is a huge shortage of them here! :(

I am not feeling well at all right now. My allergies are flaring up, along with my blood pressure and weakness. I had to bow out of going to a university graduation because of how I'm feeling today.

Today is Mother's Day and I don't get to see my son. Because of circumstances this year I won't be able to have him up this summer which really sucks because we were both looking forward to it. It's going to be hard to tell him because I know he will be crushed. I don't get to talk to him that much on the phone because of my ex husband's work schedule.

I will be glad when I go back to the doctor at the end of the month because she will hopefully be able to tell me whether I have hyperparathyroidism again.

I'm just lounging around today, hoping that my son will call  back. I only talk to him on Sundays because that is the best day to get a hold of him. I miss him a lot and can't believe that he is going to turn 7 in July! 

Both my boyfriend and I are looking for work. I was laid off in February and have yet to find another job. I am still waiting to hear back about an online moderator job which I had a telephone interview a while ago. I'm not sure what to think about it since the telephone interview was quite a while ago now. I emailed the interviewer and haven't received much response. In the meantime, I am still looking for and applying for jobs online. We really need the money.

I have still been having health issues and am waiting to get blood tests done at the hospital on May 7th and to see my endocrinologist on May 20th. My calcium levels are high again which in the past has meant parathyroid problems. If that is the case then it will mean a third surgery. Most of the health problems I am having now are related to my parathyroid.  If I do need the surgery then I will either have to get it in another city or another province.

I am really enjoying this site. It's so nice to read the experiences of others and to share my own. I have yet to explore the other parts of this site. This is my first blog here. I find that it is sometimes much easier to put my thoughts down in writing as opposed to saying them out loud because my thoughts seem to flow much better this way.